Almost there

It is the 13th today and a few more days, it will be May 20. It is our anniversary date. And this year, it will be the third.

For the past two years, we were not able to celebrate it together, but that were all fine. We learned to get by it because it is one of the consequences of long distance relationship. And for this year, I am actually wondering what will be the difference, or will there be?

The years that gone by between us while being away from each other, were not the most glory, but surely, we have learned a lot from it. There were fights, misunderstandings (a lot of it, thanks to me) and resolution of course. There was no other options than to stay together because we have a commitment to keep. But each year, it was a time for me to at least, evaluate what we have; to see if what we have is still good.

How do one actually celebrate their anniversary? Should it be simple? Should it be a grand celebration? Should it be something memorable? I guess I will just have to wait if it will be something. And surely, this is again another time to reevaluate myself if I have changed for the better in this relationship or if I am becoming worse. I am actually fearing something, something that might come up.

I hope I'd be better.